Should I just dip my toes into the water? Should I wade only waist deep? Or do I freely dive (well more like do a cannon ball because I am a horrible diver) into the world of “Being Green?”
Currently I am standing with my feet in the water wondering whether or not I want to get fully wet. In no way is my house 100% eco-friendly. Honestly, the idea is a little overwhelming. There is so much to learn, and my knowledge is limited. This will not stop me. The idea that is most crippling is money, is it really feasible for a low income family of five to live green? Another factor is people. For some reason I think that the Christian community might have a hard time with my new found passion. Most of the comments I receive are about this fallen world and good thing this isn’t our home. One day, Jesus will come back and restore this earth to perfection. Until then, I will appreciate His art and take care of it. God made me in His image, and although I have fallen short- I still want to respect and honor His image. I love my community- and I pray that they will understand my desire to honor God’s creation, self sustain, learn, and ask questions. This is my conviction, and part of the conviction is to raise awareness.
Luc and I were talking about this in the kitchen the other night as I looked at food labels. “How far are we going to go in all of this?” I asked, “And as we learn new things we can’t just turn our eyes at we know.” For example, Kaleb loves noodles. My first thought is to pull out the Top Ramen (it is fast and very cheap), but then I look on the back of the label and the little bag of seasonings is just too much. I can’t do it, how could I feed this to my son? I think of Matthew 7:9-11 “9 Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent? If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!” I understand this is a little out of context but in my mind that is what I’m thinking- why would I give something to him that is not whole? I want to give good gifts to my children. I want to give their bodies a chance. I am affecting their health in the future. That is a lot of responsibility and as a mother this is my role.
A lot of instances in life I am asking myself, “Why do I do this.” Why do I wash and condition my hair every day with Pantene? Why can’t I make my own shampoo and conditioner? Why do I put the clothes in the dryer when it is sunny and windy outside? Why do I buy vegetables at the store when I can grow them myself? Why is there the need to buy brand new items (clothes, furniture, household items)? I feel that this world has gone so far away from truth and reasonable living- and I am very guilty of this. I think about other people in different parts of the world. I bet they have never seen so many food items that I see on a daily basis. How can I complain about my lifestyle when others are suffering? What can I possibly do to help this world and His children?
I will do the best that I can do. I will not let limitations or ignorance stop me. I will be a good steward with what God has given me- and I will ask Him to show me the way.