I received precious knowledge from the documentary “The Human Experience.” The reality that everyone has a life story is a very beautiful concept. It will change the way I see people. The section about the Leper Colony brought me sadness, and I questioned what I would feel sitting next to them. It was the first time I have seen someone with leprosy, I honestly didn’t think it still existed.
When I was a teenager, my aunt and uncle had a child- he was born at 30 weeks and weighed 1 lb 13 oz. That is a block of cheese, the father could even fit his wedding ring around the baby’s arm. I will never forget seeing him in the incubator, so fragile I thought he could break. I babysat him often, and went to a training class on how to handle premature babies. Carrying him around with a heart detector and stomach tube was not easy. And his regular puking episodes were so hard to watch. Years continued on and he grew, he was the typical 2 year old, into everything and full of attitude. My character was tested one day, and I laughed that I would argue with a toddler. Instantly, the negative child memories flooded my mind. I realized that one day he would have memories of me, and my actions determined if it was good or bad. It was my first understanding of what influence was.
I am my child’s human experience. Corbin’s world is this family. Kaleb’s foundation is this family. Obadiah’s security is this family. This world that we create together should be filled with love, respect, learning, and an appreciation for one another as human beings. These are the first memories. These years shape who they will become. My stresses, annoyances, and chores do not give me a right to bring negativity. The sacrifice and duty of motherhood brings character. My children are counting on me. They are counting on me for confidence in who they are, to unconditionally love them and to give them the freedom to dance in this trust. They are depending on me to teach them. Luc and I are their example of marriage, to be wholehearted for someone. I will not live in guilt of ways that I have failed, I will live in the joy of my responsibility as a parent. May I remember this every time I look at them.