I remember my father pushing me on the swings as a child. I thought I could reach out my hands and touch the sky. I loved watching the night come with the changing clouds and watching the bats fly- the mixed emotions of fear and wonder of a bat intrigued me. I remember in 2nd grade crying while my classmates poked fun at my multi colored birds nest saying, ” That’s not what they look like, she can’t color!” My teachers words set me free, “That is the beauty of art, it can be anything you want it to be.” One night I dreamed of drawing a giraffe, I woke up the next morning with full confidence of recreating this image- I failed miserably and determined that I must not be an artist cause I can’t draw. I remember walking into my friends house and seeing the most beautiful drawings of a naked woman- my curious eyes made me ashamed.
I met my husband almost 6 years ago, shooting stars surrounded us the night we expressed our feelings for one another- I always believed in soul mates and I had found mine. He has inspired me to see the world a little larger, to be honest and sincere in all situations, and that learning and change are an important part in someone’s character. Three months into our marriage we were surprised with a pregnancy, I cried and laughed at the same time. When we made the decision to have a water birth, my world was changed. The determination to have a no intervention gentle birth was met with others worries and hesitations, but my desires were fulfilled and I felt empowered. The labor and birth of my three sons will forever be in my heart and part of our story.
When I found out that Salem, Oregon had a 50% c-section rate, I was dumbfounded. It sparked a lot of personal questions and research. I fell in love with midwifery, and when my children are older I will follow this passion. I began questioning the westernized medical approach which has led me to question lifestyle, diet, climate, stress, and daily decisions that unknowingly and knowingly affect the world. I am an artist in search of answers and truth. I pray that I have a heart open for change, eyes unwilling to be blind, and hands willing to help. Life is a gift, and I plan to respect this world that He so lovingly and wonderfully knitted together.